the hardest part is letting go.

so you didn't end up leaving this year,
i was estatic that you were still here.
so i had one more year to get ready before highschool;
with the help of someone who could understand and listen.

then friday came of the first week . 9/11/9.
i wrote you a letter thanking you for all you've done.
& quote " reality is; i don't need you in my life anymore,
as painful as it is to say, i've grown stronger".
-i'm sorry for lying to you.

i haven't grown up over the summer,
i coaped with the pain of thinking you'd leave me.
waisted countless jars of tears and countless lonely hours
thinking about life without you .

i thought i grew stronger without you being there for two months,
but truth is i just covered it with happiness and new emotions
i've never bin exposed to, being overwhelmed and being played.

it's like a mother and a child,
they think there ready to leave home but truth be told,
there not, and they need there mother.

ever since i've written that letter , i've had a fear you'd leave for real.
pack your bags and actually leave, because i thought i don't need you.
i'm really stupid for writing that and i'm sorry.
i need you.