love don't live here anymore.

my emotions , it comes natural .
what isen't natural iss what you're doing to them.
you're toying with me , and it's making a terrible knot in my stomach .
I'm not filled with guilt, i'm filled with loneliness .

you act as if nothing happend when my motivation is crashing down before my weak eyes.
everything just looks wrong to me right now. Do you see what your doing to me ?
you're breaking me , the girl you said to act real.
What's more real then this ? Nothing . Why don't you see it ?

Things are changing , like you said they wouldn't .
You said i changed to much ; i'm turning and screaming for it not to happen . it is .
how can i ever find myself if your not around .
all you do is talk and talk and talk . well now , it's going to just be silence.
cold , dead , shallow silence .

im so speachless im just wasting away my breath trying to talk.
why should i waste my time when i cant change anything.
watching you walk away was the hardest thing ive witnessed.
you walked away with a piece of me in your hand.
you saw me crying , an you said i shouldnt be.
fuck were you ever wrong.

i'm tired of being trapped in a world where theres no paralell emotion .
my emotions are never ending , never dying , and never weakening .
there strong and the only thing that involves the words weak and emotions in a sentence ,
is the fact my emotions are making me week .

mistakes arn't making me stronger, there tearing me down faster then you could imagine .
i've seen millions of faces that just stare at me , not in my eyes looking for storys .
they know i'm scared. inside im terrifyed . i don't want to live on like this .

if i could shutdown all thoughts that come across my mind i would.
just to know im still alive and living with the fact ill never be the same.
its that bad . its like nothing you'd think it would be.
i rather kill myself then feel this for 24 more hours ,

i hope my words are strong enough to hit your lungs the way they hit mine .