& the tears come streaming down your face'

when i'm sick,
it dosen't just affect my immune system.
it affect's all of me.
i go into a physocological state of mind,
where everything is completely messed up and torn.

:everything is louder then it sounds, and it hurts to hear.
the pain is more intese then it should be.
the chest pains i've had for over 13 hours now.
the throat pains that feel like sand paper got gridded against them.
where evey grain of sand had a point like a knife, fantastic ain't it?
every comment that get's thrown at you seems like an insult.
you burst into tears because you can't take it.
every thought you have builds up in your mind,
and makes an army, everything turns against you.
till it shuts you down. all they want is you to give up.
your own eyes go in defense and can't let them stay open.
they close but your system is to screwed over to fall into a sleep.
sleeping disorders kick in and don't let you get your sleep.
your appetite weakens and every time your starving, for the slightest thing.
something that wouldn't bug you before throws you off.
your discusted.
the sunlight is painfull, and the dark is terrifying.
your mind makes everything seem harder then it should be,
makes everything seem like a problem or a hassle.
tells your nerves and muscles that it's to hard to acomplish.

while every one is sound asleep your still fucking awake at 4am in the morning,
trying to figure out which pill you should try next and which tea will make it easier
to get some fucking rest.