i walk slowly when i am alone;

i've never felt so tired in my life.
even that time when i was hung over and passed out for 5 hours.
that was like dying.

what's hard to live with is tired.
over the past four years, i have never woke up.
feeling good about myself.
feeling good about the day to come
over the past year, the only thing i could look forward to was going back to sleep.
my eyes go green from over crying.
and my throat begins to throb from gasping to breathe.

it's getting worse, because i've let myself loose all thats sane within me.
i think i've finally lost my mind.
tuesday night, i thought i felt a presence within 20 cm of me.
i could feel the cold hair brushing on my arm,
as i'm just laying in my bed, wondering when i'd fall asleep.
wondering if i'd actually wake up alive or not.
the lights flickered, so i shot up and turned on all the lights.

i don't even feel safe when i'm alone.
untill someones around me i feel secure.
but there's also this one person that makes me feel safe.
there's no greater feeling knowing someones arms are around you.

funny how one person can make one small thing change,
and it can make such a a greater impact to the surface around you.

drop back down

never focused much attention on school.
my minds set on the coast, the east coast.
growing up to live with all the things i've done.
all the rules i've breaken, all the hearts i've breaken;
all the pain i've felt, all the love i've shared.

the coast was the summer i spent on.
spent waisting my time thinking about a boy
who isen't even in my life anymore.
everytime i think about the time i've waisted on him.
i think about how i could of lost my virginity that summer.
or all the people i could of bin with, but i didn't.

i gave so much to so many people,
and they just took it and put it aside.
letting me grow old and weak.
now look at me.

i'm not a wreck, and i'm not close to perfect.
but right now i feel on top of the world,.
i have a lot,
and for once in my life;
i gave you my love, and you gave me your's back.

crazy to think that,
you and your bestfriend were to fall for each other.
i just wish you wern't so immature so i could tell you how i really feel.